A Cursed Desire

You want it so badly, you chase it. 

You pray for it. You think about it 24×7. 

You decide on what you’d do if you got it. 

But in your head you know you won’t get it,

and you’ve already made your peace with it. 

And yet, deep down a voice inside tells you to not lose hope.


And then you get it. 

Impossible. Unfuckingbelievable. 

That did not just happen. But it did.

It takes you a few minutes, maybe hours,

to realise you actually got it. 

Maybe it was good karma showing up or you just got lucky. 

Maybe it was fate, maybe it was meant to be.


You love it. You cherish it.

You hold it as close to you as you possibly can.

It’s your possession, your desire personified. 

You don’t want to share it with the world.

But fate has something else planned for you.

It is taken from you, your prized possession.

You’re in denial. Crying. Hoping for it to come back.

But it won’t. It wasn’t meant to be.


You slowly let go. Learn to live without it.

You move on. The sun is shining again.

But you see a pretty butterfly fly by.

As beautiful as your prized possession.

You slip. You’re hurt. But you get up.

Dust yourself. Start moving on again.

Maybe this is how it was supposed to be.

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Eternity & Beyond

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I wish I could have you here with me,

Hold your hand as and when I please,

Hug you tight when I feel incomplete,

A life without complications is all I plead,

Things would be so easy indeed.

 

To love and care for you is all I seek,

Be your go-to person at any time during the week,

Hold your hand and hold you tight,

Never ever let you out of my sight.

 

I feel I’m perfect for you and no one else is close,

I’d love you with all I have and this nobody can oppose,

I think what stops you is the fact that I’m not your type,

But has any other guy before been worth the hype?

 

What I think you need is someone who makes you feel loved,

Someone who makes you realize what you’re worth,

Someone who puts an effort in you and your wellbeing,

Someone who makes you realize you’re worth cherishing,

Someone who will never get tired of all your cribbing,

Someone who adores you and your fussy eating.

 

I adore you so much it makes me insecure,

Cause I know it’s not going to be long before someone figures out your allure,

People don’t see it now cause you’re in a carbon state,

Put through some tests and it’ll reveal your diamond ways.

 

Sometimes I feel the dark and repeal the light,

No vision in my deemed eyes,

Lost in thought so scared inside,

Wishing you were here to hug me and say it’s alright.

The People Around

Every time you look at the books and scream “NO!”,
Every time a negative thought in your head you sow.

 

Remember who you are and what drives your soul,
Remember all your hardwork and the urge to make your dreams whole.

 

Its never about the destination but the path you take,
Its never about the world but about the friends you make.

 

Cause one day you’ll wake up with a different life and a new you,
While they’ll stay around to make sure you’re still amongst a special few.

-The Travellothoner

The Sleepless Night

 

Just a winter morning

Waking me up wrongly at three or four,

My mind the only brightened thing

In this darkened house.

 

I wake up from my bed

Turning to my spot at the window,

Leering outside on the empty street

Pondering on the kind of day it has been.

 

Recollecting all the faces that were seen today,

Remembering all the conversations that were had.

Rethinking all the words that were said today,

Visualizing all the pages that were read.

 

It’s all a big blur

Like a day without specs.

Except that 25 minute conversation with her,

That I remember so distinctly.

 

It was a normal conversation,

Nothing other than the usual.

Although it was a special individual,

That made it all so real.

 

And suddenly my thoughts

That were once slow went into overdrive.

And what was once a broken sleep

Turned into a struggle.

 

While the time stood still

And the hours went by.

As the darkness turned to light

And it all faded away.

 

-The Travellothoner

The Reunion

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A collection of people I literally grew up with,

And suddenly in that midst when the reality hit.

Its been 7 years since I last saw this bunch,

A group I used to spend time with everyday till lunch.

 

From sharing benches, classrooms and busses,

To sharing secrets, pains and crushes.

From collectively hogging tiffins and sharing food,

To sharing answers on a test that wasn’t so good.

 

From unbelievable banter, teasing and endless laughter,

To making promises of keeping in touch forever after.

And yet there I stood marvelling at the scene,

Trying to recollect how good life had once been.

 

It all seemed different and yet felt so familiar,

The happy smiles of the teachers we once used to fear.

The same vintage building now covered in fresh paint,

Thus began our journey through the walls so quaint.

 

And as I stood behind in my class with a happy smile,

To see all my classmates go back in time.

Recollecting memories that have us forever bound,

Never realised how much I missed that chaotic sound.

 

And the years recede as the time between ceased to be,

We were classmates again, the carefree friends we used to be.

It all seemed so familiar and yet felt so different,

All these mixed emotions housed within this building so magnificent.

The First Time

Your smile makes me smile,

Your laugh makes me laugh.

Your eyes are enchanting,

You make my thoughts seem daft.

 

Since the day I first laid eyes on you,

My feelings grew and grew.

In that first conversation, my knees clicked and clacked,

And those butterflies flipped and flapped.

 

And as I spill these simple rhymes,

My mind goes over time and time.

Why didn’t I ask you to dance,

During that slow song of endless romance?

 

I hope this doesn’t seem too creepy,

Please don’t think my thoughts have flown too freely.

Just know that what I speak is true,

And that I have fallen deeply for you.

The soul twin

Gorgeous smiles with the cleanest heart,

With that awesome yoga bod that sets her apart.

The loveliest voice and the most contagious laugh,

Hogging on greens like a healthy giraffe.

 

Gifted with the most talented hands and a creative mind,

Patient enough to teach art to the blind.

Carefully making cartoons and spreading countless smiles,

I challenge you to find a substitute within a thousand miles.

 

A forever perfectionist always wanting to hone her skills,

A friend who’d always accompany on your journey up the hills.

A human sponge absorbing everything thrown her way,

A child like attitude allowing her to learn new things everyday.

 

A human who’d always understand the puzzle in your head,

A person who’d never let you go upset to bed.

And somehow deep down you’d identify with her all the way,

Your thoughts and attitude match like the number of hours on any given day.

 

Consider yourself lucky if your match you’ve found,

Its as difficult as finding a needle in a haystack buried under the ground.

I love you with all my heart and every inch of my soul,

You’re as dear to me as to a miser his gold.

The Road Trip

Seldom taking the solitary way up the road,

Finding a contradictory comfort in the radio static aboard.

Or grab your people and make a move,

Blast some music and dance and groove.

 

Move at dawn before the birds start to chirp,

Bring along a coffee or smoothie to slurp.

Away from the concrete jungle into the natural bliss,

Onto the vacation that was thoroughly missed.

 

Hit the empty roads at blistering speeds,

Some necessary exercise your car seldom needs.

300 miles of pure heavenly peace,

The beautiful clouds and scenery bringing your mind at ease.

 

Listen to music aloud or in your mind you sing,

And later regret the stuff you forgot to bring.

A chance to reflect on your thoughts and actions so far,

A romantic affair to rejuvenate that long lost love with your car.

 

Call it luck or a moment of serendipity,

Your finest bunch confined in such close proximity.

A much needed gathering to pour your heart and share,

With ample time for each and everyone to spare.

 

Its about the journey and the people around,

The stories and emotions and the laughing sounds.

It is said the journey is what makes the destination whole,

So enrich your mind and rejuvenate your soul.

 

Sometimes its important to lose yourself in order to get found,

Making ties and memories life is forever bound.

And along the way your scars will heal,

Make you stronger, smarter, happier and bring new emotions to feel.

 

-The Travellothoner

The one I call Yoda

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She’s not the shade of olive green,

Nor three feet tall or super lean.

But in many ways a teacher to whom I go,

Teaching me life lessons and helping me grow.

 

She’ll be found gazing through a window,

Or working in front of a screen.

Sipping on the coffee she so happily brews,

Pondering about feasting on her next cuisine.

 

She’s a very intelligent woman,

Always gives great advice.

She’s humble, hilarious and honest,

And a very good wife.

 

An undisguised beauty,

she holds within her heart.

Always working on ways,

To make the change start.

 

She’s like a rose that grew out of concrete,

Talking to her is nothing short of a treat.

Unapologetically honest she’ll let you know,

An honest believer in quid pro quo.

 

She’s fun to be around, more so when drunk,

As peaceful and sorted as a Buddhist monk.

She’s mean to me like any bestfriend would,

But on my side she’s always stood.

 

I can assure you that I am being sincere,

When I tell you I will always be near.

This distance can only keep us physically apart,

But you’ll forever have a place in my heart.

 

-The Travellothoner